urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:johhnnycrack Make my footsteps feel so sweet Chelsea 2006-06-23T06:12:50Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:johhnnycrack:77413 2006-06-23T05:56:34Z 2006-06-23T06:12:50Z i want to forget everything.<br /><br />I hate reading books where teenage girls go through stuff thats supposed to be oh so bad and terrible that you cant even comprehend. <br /><br />But end up recognizing half the stories from my own life and my friends lives.<br />Its sick and twisted, and its driving me insane.<br /><br /><br />But all i want to do is read these books over and over.<br />Its like im fucking craving them, i rented a few books from the library about drug addictions and turning tricks and girls who dont eat or get beat or <br />anything like that.<br /><br /><br />I havent though about it for years.<br /><br />I remember the first time i went to whiterock after the summer.<br /><br />As soon as my dad drove uptown on the way to his house. I closed my eyes and couldnt breath for a second. Thats the only place i cant avoid everywhere else i give a wide berth.<br /><br />I feel like telling someone EVERYTHING that happened.<br />but i wont, because i want to keep my memories to myself <br />there the only thing i own thats entirely mine<br />that no one can pick apart.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I was at nikkis today, well ive been there for the last few days. I just got this terrible headache i couldnt even see i was lying on her couch for about 3 hours before i could even walk home. I was completely sober had been for days so i cant blame it on drugs or alcohol. <br /><br />Im fucking craving everything so bad<br />i need a lock on my room door<br />and about 4 cartons of smokes<br />so i can stop everything<br />no more drugs ever again<br /><br />even though its never going to happen<br />its sad but im a slave for life.<br /><br /><br />did i mention im achy and lonely and tired.<br /><br />Im going to get some vitamin c tablets<br />and some peppermint tea<br /><br />and go read some more urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:johhnnycrack:66573 2006-01-12T07:43:16Z 2006-01-12T07:43:16Z That chick was really mad about me trying to get my medusa the other day she accused me of bitching and trying to piss her off on purpose<br /><br />i actually wasnt cuz ive always liked her<br />i apologized and explained<br /><br />i hope she doesnt flip out<br />she's cute<br /><br />/waits to be flamed urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:johhnnycrack:22110 2005-05-24T17:19:27Z 2005-05-24T17:19:27Z I'm cocky white trash<br />wanna fuck? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:johhnnycrack:861 2005-02-15T06:45:57Z 2005-02-15T23:56:31Z <img src="http://img28.photobucket.com/albums/v85/starkravingmad/FRIENDS_ONLY_BANNER_TANKY.jpg" alt="title or description" /><br />Comment or email to be added.